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5 AM

from insomnia by Patch

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5 AM is a piece written in a mentally dark place, the track goes along with a Journal Entry that follows:

"I feel myself slipping. I go to bed and I don't wake up until I physically can no longer sleep. Even in my waking hours i feel like i'm dreaming. Nothing is real anymore, i am not who i'm living as.
in my sleep i live as a different person each night through dreaming, and those dreams feel more real than real life. So much so that doing anything in real life feels like it's not worth the effort. When I can live and be so effortlessly in my dreams what is the point of living my actual life.
I don't want the people in my life to know for I don't want them to worry. I can't let them help cause that makes me the inconvenience I fear to be. I can't let myself hurt anyone and that's why i can't let myself live my dreams. I'm stuck in a limbo between a real life that feels like a dream and dreams that feel real. The only grounding that I have are the mistakes I catch myself making. The only moments that real life feels real is when i get frustrated or mad at myself. I tell myself I study and work for my passion but what I really do is waste my time doing things I wish I was actually good at. Cause I'm not. I'm not good at anything. I'm perfectly mediocre at everything I touch or try. Slightly above the median line, unable to stand out. Purely because of a lack of motivation, because of a lack of importance. Nothing matters to me. I care, but it doesn't matter. All I am, is a blur."

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from insomnia, track released December 20, 2020

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